WAITING
I always figure ten minutes early
or I am late. Today I was really
early. An hour early! So, as I write this, I am waiting. Not enough time to go anywhere and too much
time for quietly waiting to be fun.
But it is not quiet. I hear people’s footsteps. And voices.
I hear the sound of doors opening.
And closing. The most noise is
the furnace fans. A fan big enough to
move the air through a big building. I
appreciate being warm, but it is an annoying sound. Constant.
Intrusive.
The building, like me, seems to
be waiting. Waiting to do what it is
designed for. Waiting to fulfill its
purpose.
Am I doing what I am designed
for? How do I know what I am to do? Am I on the right track? Am I…?
Am I…? Where do I find the answer
to my questions?
Sometimes it is easy. Life just feels right. I know inside – at the core of my being – I am
fulfilling my purpose.
Sometimes it is just the
opposite. My core – my conscious, my
spirit – lets me know I am not fulfilling my purpose. I know I am not on the
right track.
Then there are those other times –
most of the time – when I just am not sure.
Life does not feel right, but it does not seem wrong either. It is a time of “getting through.” And I ask, “God, what am I supposed to be doing? What is my purpose? Am I doing what you designed me for?”
Those are the times when I need
to shut out the constant, intrusive sounds.
Shut out the sound of doors and voices and shoes hitting the floor. Those are the times when I need to quietly wait. Wait until I receive direction.
For I know the plans I have for you,” declares
the Lord, “plans to prosper you
and not to harm you, plans to give you
hope and a future. Jeremiah
29:11
So I quietly wait until my inner
core – my Holy Spirit – gives me the calm that comes from the one who created
me. The calm that comes when I am
fulfilling the plans the Lord has for me.
For, you see, life is meant for
so much more than just “getting through.”
The Lord has plans for each of us.
Plans that will prosper and not harm.
Plans that will give hope and a future.
That sure beats just getting through!