DO I?

I was having trouble deciding what to write.  Then a song popped into my head: I Surrender All.  Great song, but it made me think, “Do I?”  And the answer was no.  I am not going into great detail, so this will be short.

THINGS I DO NOT SURRENDER:

• My time - I waste way too much time on Facebook.  I try to justify that with, “I listen to ministers.”
• My pain - And that, I realize, is the biggest thing I am holding onto.

I have a few physical issues and, at times, they cause great pain.  One is my left knee.  The right knee is already fake.  I made the decision to go ahead and get the left one done.  I called the doctor and cannot get in for a pre-surgery until July 7.  And with that, God and I had another talk.  My part went, “I have asked you to take the pain away, and now I can’t even get into the doctor quickly.”

BUT, when the song entered my head, I realized I have done everything except turn it over to God.  I have prayed for Him to take my pain or heal it.  That didn’t happen.  I have prayed for…..  And that is the problem.  I prayed for what I want, but I have not surrendered the pain to him.

I have not prayed that I would see what I can do with physical limitations.  I have not prayed to go through the pain with grace.  I have not prayed that the pain would end in His time.  I have not surrendered the pain.

I have now!  I know I will still hurt.  I know the timing of healing will come when it is right for His plan.  I know I will still hurt, but the pain is in God’s hands, where it belongs.